put on your red shoes and dance

today sucks. nothing is going right. everyone hates each other. school is treble. people keep on beating the shit out of earth and no one cares about the environment but they most certainly care about the economy. One of my best friends is being bullied and no one will give him the chance to breath. because they just keep choking him out with harsh words and giving him the feeling that he is to different to function in reality. no one cares about anyone ells and what is going on in there life's. they are all just to damn caught up in their own life's that there forget that other people have those. they forget that other people haves life's and that what they say affects there life's now and whats to come.
and im sad
and im stressed
and there is so much pain and i cant fix it
and i hate medicine
and i want to feel better

so what i do when ever i feel the endless whoa of the world as stupid as it is
i dance
and sing
and choose to be happy. because being happy is a choice.
 and it is my choice.


 

 

Always here- Kobi

High school was a lot cooler in the 80's

what the Hell was that!?

that was it? that was high school?! you know Ive said it before and ill say it again i was born in the wrong generation. i wish i was born in the 80's!
back when high school was fantasized with movies and i feel like skateboarders were a lot cooler.
back when retro was at its peak. and puffy shoulder pads were on every prom dress.
back when goose bumps were scary. and cool kids seemed to be cool for cool reasons.
back when music was far out  fun. and my shorts now wouldn't be considered short shorts. 
back when U.S.A. was  the shit. and what we call Merica to day is nothing but Shit!
back when kids were kids. and fourth of July and summer night sky's were always unforgettable

those were supposed to my days i miss those days i wish i lived those days

-always here Kobi

^

i remember my jr year is what you call a "grand concoction"
i remember going to the graduation of the class above me and seeing all my friends graduate and thinking that i was being left behind.
i remember starting this year out happy. but really it was just a mask to make those i love feel happy.
 i remember have many plans for this school year but falling short due to being lazy.
i remember listening to clocks by cold play and porcelain
by moby and pretty lights and having this sudden rush of a feel that i was free. and being happy.
i remember this class and how i felt like how i was going to be such a great student.
 i renumber sucking so hard at this class and just being to lazy to be creative
i remember writing to Matt and there latter never getting there and just not writing him at all
i remember lots of great 80's movies and thinking high school was going to be like them
i remember graduating from special ed conquering my ADD and feeling like the greatest victor
i remember my deep talks with Spencer
i remember why i hate school so much and what its like to be so excited for summer
i remember lots of things but that will do for now. 

 

Black God

DNA SHOWS SUSPECT HELD IN CAPTIVITY 

CLEAVLAND -

DNA test confirmed another dark twist in the story 

the woman that gave birth to the good spirits outpouring flowers 

cant speak to monsterized twisted psychological games. 

 rescued al

let them live on

accepting 

remove 

declining from captive 

Jesus 

went home

We are chairs

"i will hold you up as long as you need.

just promise me you wont kick me over."

We all have those people that lay on our shoulders to keep them up.

they just need someone that they can fall back on and keep them a float

all we hope is that they dont take our help and step off of us

kicking our wooden frame to the cold concrete floor

where we watch them suffer

and kick

yet they cant scream for our help

it is to late 

and they are gone.

and they leave us tipped over broken and scratched  

we are everyone chair

and we dread the day we get tipped over 

im always here -Kobi

step by step how to fail neslsons class

Don't write anything creative or anything at all.......

If you really knew me, which you obviously don't. you would know that my name isn't Moby S. Charelston. you would know that my name is Jakob (kobi) Alexander Montandon Veroda the 1st.

If you really knew me:
you would know that i hate slow dancing.
you would know that i am most happy when those that are around me are happy
you would know that i am so ready to get out of here and leave high school
but if you really know me you would know that i am very scared to leave

If you really know me:
you would know that i hate being called stupid
you would know that i have been in special ed ever sense the 3rd grade until now
you would also know that i graduated from special ed last quarter proving all the bullies and unbelievers wrong!
you would know that i always root for the under dog even when they are in the wrong.
you would know that i love cereal and could and have eaten it for every meal

If you really know me:
you would know that i hate posting on this blog, partially because i am lazy and the other half because i feel like it is competitive to see who will make hall of fame, i feel like having a pen name is good but for some people it allows them to live a lie (i only say that because i have written lies on here already)
you would know that i was always scared until the 10th grade and cared way to much about others opinions
you would also know that i have now shared my real name because ever sense the 10th grade i stopped caring, and sens then i did things for me. and refused to let my true self be locked away anymore. im just proud of my name and my f*cked up head. that gets splatted all over my posts. its easier for me to write in my own name and sing in my own voice.
you would know that i know you are a lot more free and happy when you stop caring about what others think

If you really knew me:
you would know that even though i was born and raised in the church i am not truly converted and that i am currently meeting with the missionaries now
you would know that even though i see the church as being so confusing and even though i never bare my testimony i love it. and so far it has never once made me sad.        I love the the church and what it teaches, its its followers that are faulty. but then again we are only human.
you would know that i still have all my action figures in my closet and refuse to let my nieces and nephews play with them
you would know that i am addicted to music, and Sigur Ros is the best band PERIOD.

If you really knew me:
you would know that i hate being apart one of the biggest clicks in the school. the hipsters. and that my biggest regret of high school is allowing this click to keep me from meeting all of you beautiful people. I hate how people have told me that i am very intimidating due to me being what you would call "a cool hipster"
you would know that i am a very excepting person and am a very genunie person.
you would know that i love to talk and im even better at listening
you would know that i am always here.

If you really knew me:
you would know that i have never kissed anyone
you would also know that i have turned people down and sometimes regret doing so
you would also know that i hate regret so much because i own so much stock in it.
you would know that i am content with life and what it throws at me. even though i get pissed at that bitch we all call life.

If you really knew me:
you would know that i really like you. i know i don't know you, but what i do know is that i cant judge you for your insecurities and differences, because its most often our insecurities and differences that keep us from being liked. we all have them. so don't be shy about them. live your life knowing we all have struggle
you would know that i want someone to love but im in no hurry
you would know that i also want that first kiss but once again i really don't care about when it comes, sure ill be the weird guy who hasn't kissed anyone in high school but at least i haven't thrown it away and i want it to mean something, something real

If you really knew me you would know that i could just keep going and going
but i feel like if you knew anything more about me you would be scared of me. if arnt already.
but i will just keep it to my self, im really good at that.

If you really knew how i feel right now you would know that i feel free
i am free from what was an endless torture of the grade school
but there you go. now you know everything you need to know + sum. and so dose everyone ellse. and i.
i feel free.

so for all you haters out there tell the crowed something about me they don't already know!

im always here -Kobi